I am a chocoholic.
I confess, I self-medicate with chocolate.
I often see you as a box of chocolates and I don't know what I'm gonna get from it. My "momma" has never told me that; I remember it from the wonderful movie "Forrest Gump."
You are a big box, indeed, and I don't know how many candies there are in, but I feel as I have already ate half. In other words, I've come a long road, but I've still got miles to go...
The truth, my precious Life, is that there have been some delightful bonbons as well as some not so. The yummy ones were easy to swallow; they melted within my mouth as they led a nice earthy taste. Every time when I was lucky to get a sweet delicious flavor of chocolate, I was filled with anticipation, energy and courage. I felt ready to fly in my colorful dress and high heels which made me tall and beautiful and radiant, and ready... The delightful blend of creamy milk chocolate with vanilla flavor made everything tasty, palpable, adventurous... The rich espresso drenched in some of the chocolates awakened my senses as I have noticed the little things and have discovered so much unexpected joy and abundance. I climbed mountains simply to behold the views. I hugged every single person you brought into my life since the creamy, mellow savor in my vains made me egoless, gentle, and full of wonder... How I love those unique experiences!
But there were some yucky ones that had been hard to digest.
Sometimes the dark chocolate has been so dark and bitter I even forgot it was still my beloved chocolate. I was lost, confused and discouraged as my stomach hurt and my heart was locked in the box. At other times, some nuts in the candies I picked gave me an allergic suffering long enough to make me appreciate the sweet, tasty confections more.
However, my challenging life, I have learned that the purest dark chocolate was certainly the best chocolate I ever had and it's been good for my heart...and faith. Oh, yes, those yucky days of hardship have determined my character, strengths and my wealth.
The beautiful thing about you, dear Life, is the fact that the most difficult challenges are often the most rewarding and satisfying experiences. Sweet and sour, chocolate candies are still candies and those who love chocolate love all of them. They are gifts as everything in life is.
Every event, experience and person in my life supported me in being the person I am today. That's why I barely read the assorted selection guide on the box of chocolates. It doesn't mean I have no control over my destiny, it's simply shows that I've reached the point in which I like to live life by surprise.
Today, to me, you, Life, is not about knowing what's going to happen next. Certainty has been this extra weight killing my sense of awe and wonder. I am gradually accepting the mind of the beginner again - open, curious, free of judgments.
The mindset of not knowing makes me humble and able to take any kind of moments and make the best of them. And, perhaps, the most important asset of constantly feeling as a novice has been discovering unknown capabilities of myself.
Dark or milk chocolate, with a creamy raspberry center or sour lemon inside, I am willing to eat every and each bonbon in my chocolate box.
Dear Life, today I give thanks.
Thank you for you, my life, past and present, sweet and bitter, creamy and chewy. Thanks for all the lessons learned and all the others that are coming my way.
I am full of gratitude for being alive and being me.
You are a blessing!
P.S. Did I mention , I have a chocolate lab "eating" candies from my "box of chocolate"?!
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